I am just about to finish an interesting read by Ray Anderson, entitled
Judas and Jesus: Amazing Grace for the Wounded Soul. This book has really opened my eyes to sickness of the soul (suicide) that so many people struggle with. Coming into this book I really wasn't sure on what I beleive about suicide, I mean, I guess in the back of my mind I considered it like the unpardonable sin or something that was beyond God's grace and forgiveness.
Ray makes some really good points throughout the book and continues to point out throughout the book that Judas was an answer to Jesus' prayer (which I never really thought of it that way) and that how he not only betrayed Jesus, but his fellow disciples as well. The author drives home the point that Judas could not forgive himself and the author also depicts a story at the beginning of the book of what the conversation would have look like between Judas and Jesus if they were able to have on while on earth....just like Jesus was able to talk it over with Peter about his own betrayal, when denying Jesus.
I think one of the key points that is made in the book, is that to have betrayal there must be love because were there is true love there is trust and vulnerability for one to betray. The author get really deep in this area of love, God's love, self-love and being created in God's image. As I read through this there where points where I found myself disagreeing at first but as I read on I found that the author does an exceptional job of explaining his reasoning behind some of his thoughts.
What you think of this read, will depend on your views of grace, and perseverance of the saints (once saved always saved). I guess the thing that helps me is that Judas was God's answer to prayer and that Jesus chose him, not the other way around. And in the 3yrs they spent together there had to be good times with Judas and what about how Jesus washed his feet, just as the others, and broke bread with him, the same night it all went down...and what about the other disciple who betrayed in his own ways, Peter.
This book was a great read and I would suggest anyone to read it, to help critically think through this area of God's grace and sovereignty, along with a deep look into one's own life as to what lays within each one of us who could so easliy fall into becoming our own Judas.